The past two weeks have been extremely dificult for us....we are being sifted...you know, like when you put all the dry ingredients in the sifter and sift until all the lumps are out and the flour is as smooth as silk. GOD is sifting us....He is getting out all the lumps and it hurts. The decisions and sacrifices of the past have caught up with us and GOD is forcing us to make changes. It hurts to see your spouse work so hard to provide for all and to dream so big and have those dreams taken away. It forces you to re-evaluate your priorities....it forces you to live one day at a time....it makes you focus on GOD's glory, and realize that HIS plan for us is not what we want, but what is best for us. It's easy to say that, but it's hard to accept and it's even harder to live through it. I'm mad....I'm disappointed...I'm baffled by the insensitivity of others....I have moments of lost faith....I'm realistic about what is going on and it ain't pretty ....I want revenge at times....I'd like to run away from all of this....but this is part of the sifting and wherever I go, however I feel, GOD will get the lumps out to make me more like HIM!